Robert Lamar Bennett

What to say about my love... So much say, I wish we had more time. 14 years together, our lives became so intertwined that I can't go anywhere or do anything without thinking of you. I remember when we first met, we met through a mutual friend, in Commerce, Georgia. You were in the backseat of Kathy's car and I wasn't feeling so good and you looked at me and said something snarky. And I looked up at you to give you some snarky remark back but when I saw your beautiful eyes and you're handsome face, I straightened myself up real quick and made myself feel better. I texted Kathy and said I think your friend Bobby is Right cute. We exchanged numbers. Talked on the phone here and there. So many reasons why we shouldn't have ever met again. And you know those reasons why. But you contacted me like 3 weeks later. And I was so excited to hear from you. You had moved 2 hours away to Sandersville. And I decided after a couple of months of talking that I was going to take a vacation and come down and see you. And I was going to spend two weeks with you. Well I got to spend about a week and a half maybe. I remember the first time you kissed me. So soft and so sweet. The only person to ever pick me flowers. I fell in love with you immediately. You were the most creative person that I have ever met. And you were so strong. Tall and lean, a Florida man. I always said I'd never be with the Florida man but I didn't even care. That was just something silly I would say to people. But you broke all of my silly rules. I had to come back home and then I decided two things, I was going to come back and see you a couple of weeks later, you didn't believe me, and I was eventually going to introduce my two sons to you because I knew they were going to find you just as awesome as I found you. I worked it out with my job where I could work on the weekends and come see you on the week days. And it was like that that entire summer 14 years ago. I would drive the 2 hours south to see you in a 2 hours back after the week just to work on the weekends. I didn't make much money but I didn't have to because you were out there on the Old farm of your grandma's finding scrap metal and making about $100 a day. You were 25 and I was 31. 6 years apart, I was older. But it didn't feel like it. You were the kindest person I have ever met. You did have your ways. But I had mine. I swore to you that summer I was your girl and nothing would change that. You went to Florida for a month and a half to build pools and waterfalls with your uncle because that was your trade. And you learned the old school way. And sadly that trade is what took you because of all the stuff you breathed in. Sadly it took your uncle. But We had 14 great years together. We had our moments but we worked through them. It wasn't always easy. But it wasn't always hard either. It's Like that with any relationship. And my 2 sons they loved you as you loved them. They thought you were so cool when they were little and they respected you the older they got. We lived in Florida for 10 years and it wasn't an easy life in florida. But it was something else in a good way. You went down there to help Uncle Carl build the pools. And everybody you ever met had nothing but respect for you and the work that you did. You were perfection when it came to your job and homeowners knew it your boss knew it. I didn't meet too many people that you met that didn't like you. You were a defender of those you loved and those less fortunate. I literally saw you give your shirt and your shorts off of your body to a guy that literally had no clothes, a homeless man in DeLand Florida that we knew, that was wrapped in blankets. Good thing you wore two pairs of shorts over your boxers. Then years later about a year and a half maybe 2 years ago, you were diagnosed with t cell lymphoma in Daytona Beach. We have been living a nomadic life, still working but camping out for like 5 years and you made my dreams come true. you built me a paradise in the wilderness with our dog Ginger and then Ginger died of cancer on Valentine's Day 2024 and you were there for me. And I was there for you when it happened cuz we loved that dog for 8 years. Then you rescued little Jayde about 3 weeks after she passed away. And I prayed I would never have to see any of my loved ones go through what our dog went through. But you were diagnosed later that year. and it's scary when that happens. We both had the thought at the same time, you need to come home and be with your family and get your treatments and I would stay behind for just a few months and work. And when I tried to move back I got so sick I had to go back to Florida and work for 8 more months and we were apart for about 10 months total, maybe. The first time I came up that November it was so hard to leave you again. But we talked everyday and we would FaceTime and I missed you so much and I never wanted to miss you again. Everything down there reminded me of you and I didn't want to leave our little town of Osteen until I got to come home to Georgia and stay. But I finally came home because you got really sick you couldn't move your right arm or your right leg. And you were in the hospital and I came up here immediately. I didn't care anymore about saving money. That was about 7 months ago. I should have came up before then. I just didn't want us to struggle. I saw miracles working you! you saw those miracles! A lot of people saw those miracles! But I saw so many more throughout the years as did you. God had his hand on his both and he still does. And for about 6 months you were in remission maybe longer. But when it came back it came back with a force and you knew it was back and I don't want to believe it. And I wish we could have had more time. There's so many stories I can tell how of awesome and how great you are. And I really believe God called you home because he saw how much you were suffering. I was praying for one more miracle, Lord please heal his cancer let him survive this. But if not welcome him into the Your kingdom so he doesn't suffer anymore. And I know you were trying to get right with God. And he knows your heart and I think that's what the miracle was. That you don't have to suffer anymore. that you're in the most beautiful paradise where there is no sadness and No More tears. No more pain It's day three without you, and I'm missing you again. But this time I can't call you, I won't hear your voice anymore, I won't ever see your face again except in pictures and on videos. I won't be able to hold your hand or kiss your lips or feel your embrace. Music won't be the same.. I can't look at photos right now. I think about your mom, how she's lost two of her children within 6 months of each other. I wouldn't be able to stand it. But those of us left behind we have to carry on. I'm just tired of being strong. But I'll stay strong for you Robert Lamar Bennett. I'll stay strong for my family and yours which is also my family. I'm glad you got to come home and spend the time with your mom and your sisters and your nieces and nephews. Because they love you so much. As do I, My best friend my love, my protector ,my husband. I would have done anything for you and you for me. You fought to The bitter end. Watching you lose your strength and your voice within those last 3 weeks of being deemed terminal, it was hard to watch. I'm glad that Seth was there, your youngest step son, and your sister Tammy. And your mom went to the hospital and she was worried you thought she had abandoned you but I told her that you had whispered to Daryl thank you for taking her because she needed to go. So I think it was a load off your mind that night before you passed. I'm sorry for any wrongs that I might have done to you. You know I loved you though and I still do and I always will. I will never love another. And you said, you told me, that's what everyone says. but I mean it. I know myself and you know that and I won't. All of my love is always and forever for you. Things won't be the same without you. The picture they chose for you on the site, is so suiting with the waterfall. Because that's where you wanted to be. By the river. God bless your soul Bobby. Mi Corazon. My heart. My love you're always with me. And Jayde, that little doggie rescued 2 years ago you know she loves you too. Everyone loves you Bobby. Everyone misses you. Hopefully one day again we will all meet on God celestial shores. And none of us will have to feel this pain ever again. Until then you're up there with your sister and my dad and your uncle and so many others that we have lost throughout the years. You're up there with our dog Ginger. And any other pet because I don't believe animals go anywhere but to heaven. And you'll look over us from above. I love you. I love you. To the moon and back I love you.